18 Months

I don't know what to say. There has been no progress with Leilani's speech in the last couple of months. She still doesn't say much of anything. Imagine having an 18-month-old that you can't verbally communicate with. The frustration in the house is almost at a tipping point. Leilani throws tantrums all the time because we don't understand her and she can't do anything else. Mike and I misplace our frustration by getting upset with her. Tonight I cried in the shower because my emotions have been stretched thin and I couldn't stop myself, not to mention the constant worry I feel about Leilani. I've always maintained my belief that Leilani is smart. I see it in her all the time. She can figure things out and solve problems quickly, but she just doesn't want to talk. This has always been my stance. She's normal. But as the months go on and on with zero progress, I can't help but worry that I'm completely incorrect and there's something really wrong with her mentally. I'm so afraid. Everyone keeps telling us that she's just a late talker and it'll happen soon and when it does she won't stop talking. My mom says once Leilani starts talking, she won't stop and I'll wish she would. I don't see that happening. I think when she does start talking, if ever, I'll be so damn grateful I won't want her to stop.