Busy Busy.

I have been oh so busy for the last two weeks. So much so that I've barely been online at all. I have been doing my clinical rotation at Froedtert Clinic in Menomonee Falls for 8.5 hours a day and I have had almost no free time. I get up before the sun does, go to work, come home and spend the rest of my day taking care of Leilani. While I'm at work, all I can think about is getting home to spend time with Leilani, but by the time I actually get home, I really just want to relax. 

Mike has a hockey game tonight and I think Leilani will be spending a little time playing in her room so I can get at least an hour of "me" time. She won't mind though. I've been working with her all day on her speech, so I bet she could probably use a break too. 

And on that topic... there's been no really improvement in her speech. She's picking up more and more hand signs, so at least there's a little progress with communication. I'm still waiting on that light to come on in her head regarding talking. I see other kids that are the same age as her with their 50-100 word vocabularies and I think to myself, "Those parents should have nothing to complain about. My daughter has 3 words. Go fuck yourself."  Is that mean and completely off-base? Yes, it is. But it's honestly how I feel sometimes.

I think I'm just going through a mood slump. It may have something to do with the weather. I find that has a huge impact on the way I feel normally. I usually love springtime because it signals the end of cold and dark days and renewed life. But this particular spring has been just miserable. It's still too cold to play outside, still snows occasionally, and there are still no leaves on the trees. It's like winter version 2.0. I need warmth, sun, and outdoors. But it'll come. I hope.